Today, I marked the dot of being two years working as enslavians. I still remembered last year, I was on the way back from a meeting in Sandakan with my boss in a taxi, when I mentioned to her of being 1 year working in her company. A week after, I got RM300 increment. Funny, when i think of it now. But, I guessed I got what I longed for - finally, a job with a good pay.
2 years ago, on 28 September 2009, I reported to duty here. Unlike my first job, my confidence was at a level I believed would be good enough for me to make a first impression. Only the anxiety of not being able to make a proper acquaintance with the new colleagues worries me. After being unemployed for 8 months, getting the job was the best thing I could ever think of. Failures from previous jobs really challenged my determination whether staying in the consultancy line should be my options. However, I was not yet mentally prepared for any other. The journey to KL chasing my dream job doesn't seem to be the path for me. Even the whole thing seems too good to be true. But, that's another story.
The interview with the MD of the company 2 months prior, seems unsuccessful at first. But, I guess she had no other option. I began to slowly understand, that's how it was for the others.
I was employed as Environmental Engineer with a starting salary of RM2k. I thought I'll be coordinating engineering projects, but knowing my strength is in reporting EIAs, I was given EIA projects. My first project was rather easy for me, solution to related project issues were solved immediately. The client felt my professionalism and even offered to buy me lunch anytime I drop by KL. But somehow, after two years, that was the one and only EIA report I can call my own.
A second project my boss handed over was one of a politically controversial projects. As its sounds big to the company, MD asked me to coordinate. Official coordination started in Jan 2010, had a co-executive assisting but still had my hand full. Meetings every week, progress reports due every fortnightly. But, the project was halted in May 2010 due to 'expected issues'.
During those times, I was also asked to help in reviewing draft reports done by other executives. I did not hesitate commenting, cause I think I can share my experience. Some find me arrogant, but I tried to stay humble. However, my boss find my technical review skills can be made to a good use. I was reviewing all related EIA documents with pleasure. I started to feel being appreciated with no stress. Real cozy environment where I can get a good night sleep at night and not think of work in the weekends. Some more, having most of the colleagues as young and friendly, I felt secured. Even my previous company, called to offer my old job with the same pay offered here, I declined.
The company was engaged as a consultant to one mega project funded by the federal government. I was interested to get involved at first, but knowing the project experts were only paid to come to the meetings and report writing were being done by company's fresh graduates, i felt it was already a total loss in the beginning. One of the first 'river' tasks my boss asked me to do, was to comment on a questionnaire prepared by one of the company's ex-staff. Caused some trouble, but I did what I had to do. The truth hurts, but almost everything was wrong and rather embarrassing to call it a work of a professional.
In the first place, I was in and out of the mega project. Then, my boss asked to coordinate the water quality modelling for the project and I thought it was a good chance to grab. I stepped on the job and loved every minute of it. My boss may still envy me for taking in the whole experience. After the Q2K, I was asked to joined meetings and follow her around. I did what I can. Being a multi-tasker with trained skills of a professional, it was not that hard. Without realizing it, I focused my attention being the sixth assistant coordinator for the project. Looking at how the trend of coordinators who walked away or even asked to, I was petrified. Only hoping I can bear the whole thing.
October 2010, I found out I was pregnant. My boss was happy for me. Being an employee that she called, someone-she-can-connect-to, pressure and works were reduced. Nevertheless, I did not realized it at first, but my performance was decreasing by time. I started to forget ways around a shopping complex, when my husband used to call me a 'walking-gps'. I started to disregard matters that were important. Pregnancy has literally made me vomit out all my capabilities. Still, like one of the quotable elder's advice "bukan salah ibu mengandung".
Chinese New Year 2010 - I got 4 months bonus along with salary increment of RM200. Alhamdulillah, I thought it was my baby's fortune. The MD highlighted her personal appreciation to my efforts and contribution. Personal discussion on my future was also put on the table. I was grateful, it was the sign I waited. I knew I stayed here for good. With the expansion of the office space, I had a room to myself.
Despite the good news, our GM was the first to resign this year. We figured, she had issues with the boss. I was let in on her stories when she came by crying in my room. I pity her, being a best friend and yet betrayed.
The project was on the verge of collapse when the government officials started to query on the quality of the report and actual project outcomes costing RM4millions were nowhere to be seen. She thought she can make it on her own. Advice to take in experts, even its too late, was ignored. My boss knew the company's in trouble unless she do something. Experts were then 'forced' to join in with strict T&C.
An assistant executive was not able to put up to the boss's demand and resigned as well. Most of us kept going. I started to feel the pressure being too strong at one point when one day, I break down in front of the boss. I was given 1 1/2 days rest. After the project milestone was achieved, my boss generously gave me another few days break - unrecorded. Coming back to work with a new spirit, I felt a bit strange when my phone didn't rang for a few days. As it still, until today. I felt ignored, messages was passed on through someone else's emails or calls. I was not invited to join internal meetings. I tried to figure out what I did but, never got it. Noticing someone else assisting the boss, I laid back to wonder. The executive probably felt the pressure, she tendered her resignation after a week.
I figured, my boss would bring up the Q2K issues at the last minute. I tried to help. Yet, she refused to talk. My long emails to her was probably ignored, her ego was too great. Knowing my due date was approaching, I tried my best and had possibly rectified the problems. I managed to finalize everything by 5 pm on 16th June 2011. I submitted myself to the hospital that night, and gave birth 9 am on the 17th.
My 60 days maternity leave was a great rest for me. However, it seems to be terrifying to most of my colleagues when I found out 4 of them were resigning that month. Everyone that was ever 'env-olve'. I backed-off my plan to make up with my boss, cause I thought it would only make her feel more embarrassed. There was probably not even a chance.
Hoping for a brighter day waking up, I had only one plan in mind - to begin searching.
Wednesday, 28 September 2011
Monday, 26 September 2011
'senam robik' yang sangat menarik
I was chatting with my colleagues last week just a few minutes before going off and found out about this wordpress posted about 13 ways to avoid from becoming sleepy and lose stress at the same time. Soo cute, I had to share it here :)
I hope Abu Musaddad don't mind me resharing.
Thank you.
http://ibnismail.wordpress.com/2008/07/16/cara-menghilangkan-mengantuk-dan-tekanan/
13 Langkah hilangkan Mengantuk dan Tekanan
Loved it. Gotta teach my kids ;p
I hope Abu Musaddad don't mind me resharing.
Thank you.
http://ibnismail.wordpress.com/2008/07/16/cara-menghilangkan-mengantuk-dan-tekanan/
13 Langkah hilangkan Mengantuk dan Tekanan
Loved it. Gotta teach my kids ;p
resipi tomyam
Tomyam Campur
Barang-barang yang perlu dibeli di kedai:
- Ayam di potong kecil
- Udang
- 1 biji bawang bombay, dihiris.
- 6 batang serai, dititik
- 10 helai daun limau purut, diremuk
- 5 sudu besar bungkus kecil cili boh
- 2 sudu besar asam jawa instant
- 1/2 tin kecil tomato puree
- 1 cube pati tomyam (brand maggie)
- 2 cube pati ikan bilis (brand maggie)
- 1 cube pati ayam (brand maggie)
- 10 biji cili padi
- 5 biji cili burung
- 2 batang bunga kantan
- 3/4 kotak santan (brang harmuni)
- Sayuran seperti bunga kubis, brokoli, seleri, carrot, etc.
Cara-cara memasak:
- Sediakan semua bahan-bahan di atas.
- bahan-bahan di atas sesuai untuk makan 6 - 8 orang. jd, sediakan periuk yang sedang-sedang besar.
- tumbuk cube tomyam, cube ikan bilis, cube ayam bersama cili padi dan cili burung.
- tumis, bawang bombay sehingga sedikit kekuningan.
- masukkan, asam jawa dan kacau sehingga rata.
- tumis cili boh sehingga naik minyak.
- masukkan bahan-bahan yang ditumbuk tadi, tumis bersama-sama serai dan bunga kantan.
- tambahkan 1/2 cawan air dan kacau sehingga rata.
- tambahkan tomato puree.
- masukkan ayam. biarkan mendidih dulu - utk memastikan sudah masak.
- tambah air secukup rasa. sekiranya mahu lebih berkuah, lebihkan.
- masukkan sayur-sayuran dan masak sehingga lembut utk dimakan.
- masukkan daun limau purut.
- masukkan udang dan masak sekejap. tidak perlu lama.
- tuangkan santan dan kacau sampai rata.
- rasa. sekiranya, kurang masin, tambahkan perasa. kalau malas mau guna garam/ajinomoto, tambah kiub bilis/ayam.
Ini gambar hasil google, tp lebih kurangla rupanya.
Selamat mencuba!
Barang-barang yang perlu dibeli di kedai:
- Ayam di potong kecil
- Udang
- 1 biji bawang bombay, dihiris.
- 6 batang serai, dititik
- 10 helai daun limau purut, diremuk
- 5 sudu besar bungkus kecil cili boh
- 2 sudu besar asam jawa instant
- 1/2 tin kecil tomato puree
- 1 cube pati tomyam (brand maggie)
- 2 cube pati ikan bilis (brand maggie)
- 1 cube pati ayam (brand maggie)
- 10 biji cili padi
- 5 biji cili burung
- 2 batang bunga kantan
- 3/4 kotak santan (brang harmuni)
- Sayuran seperti bunga kubis, brokoli, seleri, carrot, etc.
Cara-cara memasak:
- Sediakan semua bahan-bahan di atas.
- bahan-bahan di atas sesuai untuk makan 6 - 8 orang. jd, sediakan periuk yang sedang-sedang besar.
- tumbuk cube tomyam, cube ikan bilis, cube ayam bersama cili padi dan cili burung.
- tumis, bawang bombay sehingga sedikit kekuningan.
- masukkan, asam jawa dan kacau sehingga rata.
- tumis cili boh sehingga naik minyak.
- masukkan bahan-bahan yang ditumbuk tadi, tumis bersama-sama serai dan bunga kantan.
- tambahkan 1/2 cawan air dan kacau sehingga rata.
- tambahkan tomato puree.
- masukkan ayam. biarkan mendidih dulu - utk memastikan sudah masak.
- tambah air secukup rasa. sekiranya mahu lebih berkuah, lebihkan.
- masukkan sayur-sayuran dan masak sehingga lembut utk dimakan.
- masukkan daun limau purut.
- masukkan udang dan masak sekejap. tidak perlu lama.
- tuangkan santan dan kacau sampai rata.
- rasa. sekiranya, kurang masin, tambahkan perasa. kalau malas mau guna garam/ajinomoto, tambah kiub bilis/ayam.
Ini gambar hasil google, tp lebih kurangla rupanya.
Selamat mencuba!
Tuesday, 20 September 2011
dream house
I wanted to put it up here. In this blog. My dream house. Cause having to browse and start all over would be ridiculous. If I was to resign and forgot to take the layouts with me from the desktop, I do have to start all over. Nevertheless, having to forget this blog would also mean the same thing. Haih. Fingers cross.
Couple of months ago, when my sister started her layout of her house I began to think that I should do the same. I started drafting in an excel, it seems to take forever. Then, it ticks me, why can't I browse it. People may have uploaded thousands of house layouts. i can take it. It doesn't mean, I have to follow the exact design. It can inspire me later on.
Here's a few of my favorite ones.
1) 1st Layout Option
3) 3rd Layout Option:
Couple of months ago, when my sister started her layout of her house I began to think that I should do the same. I started drafting in an excel, it seems to take forever. Then, it ticks me, why can't I browse it. People may have uploaded thousands of house layouts. i can take it. It doesn't mean, I have to follow the exact design. It can inspire me later on.
Here's a few of my favorite ones.
1) 1st Layout Option
2) 2nd Layout Option
3) 3rd Layout Option:
I haven't had the chance to really look at it. But, will provide comments later.
Monday, 19 September 2011
morning journey from home to work
Everyday, I embrace myself to get up and prepare myself to work. Without actually doing anything, my paycheck is still being signed. Gotta love it.
My morning journey starts at home at Kg. Laut Benoni, Papar sometime around 6.30 am. 2 km to the traffic light at the junction outside my kampung. Left to Beaufort, right to KK. 27 km to the Papar-KK district line.
3 - 4 km to Pekan Papar 1st roundabout. Less than 40 m to the 2nd roundabout. 25 m to the Sg. Papar bridge. Will pass by Giant Supermarket and a never-gated-down railway track. Kg. Pengalat besar which appears small before Kg. Pengalat Kecil with bigger views. Will pass by major landmarks of Deli Furniture and Melinsung Summerbay Apartments, before climbing up a 35 degree hill of Bukit Melinsung. If you managed to get by early morning, climbing down, you would probably get the chance to view Mt. Kinabalu.
A smooth road going through Beringgis for a few kilometers. Should pass by a few kampungs I've never known, before reaching the second bridge of Sg. Kawang. Will notice one seafood restaurant nearby the riverbay, crossing also Outward Bound Sabah on the left and Kinarut's famous Rumah Besar on the left. Strolling down the hill, left and right got a few more other landmarks which I don't remember, before the third bridge of a-river-i-need-to-check-the-names. Oh, yeah, this is usually when I would name the place, Kinarut. Borneo Paradise resort on the left and Petronas petrol station approximately 2 km on the right side. Reaching here before 6.58 am would usually get you stuck in a traffic jam. Probably because of the SMK Kinarut, 1.78 km ahead. The state's government solution to construct a small roundabout, may have seem to lessen the jammed-up cars a bit. But, still it was chaos for a lot of people. Somemore, facing the east, anyone who had no shades would be cursing at the sun.
Then, there is another roundabout marking the Lokkawi Heights on the right side and Sabindo on the left, before meeting a finally dual lane of the so-called high way. Not to sure of the district line, but here you will notice a board placed stating 'selamat datang'.
Anyway, then this place would be called as Kem Lokkawi. With spectacular view facing the shoreline, the highway, stretches approximately 10 km until Putatan town. Will crosses by 1 traffic light, before entering Petagas. With the newly constructed bridge and flyover ahead, my journey takes the left lane to enter Jalan Lintas. Don't take too far left, otherwise you'll end up in KKIA departure hall.
Lintas has 5 major T-junctions, from KKIA there is Donggongon Bypass, Lido, Lintas, Damai and Inanam. My workplace needs to pass by 4 of these traffic lights. Traffic would not be soo pleasing even throughout the whole day. Never a moment of relieve passing by here. After the 4th traffic light, a small shopping complex on the left called Citymall. This piece of road is rather long whereas there are 4 u-turns with 3 traffic lights. My u-turn would be the 3rd one after Iramanis Plaza just 0.78 km prior to Shell gas station. Take left after the third u-turn, entering Kolombong Industrial Area. Sazarice on the left side, Taman Khidmat on the right. 2 small roundabouts, to take left. First left junction, 276 m will notice Kolombong Food City and Angkatan Hebat building.
I'm working at the food city, as a temporary waitress.
My morning journey starts at home at Kg. Laut Benoni, Papar sometime around 6.30 am. 2 km to the traffic light at the junction outside my kampung. Left to Beaufort, right to KK. 27 km to the Papar-KK district line.
3 - 4 km to Pekan Papar 1st roundabout. Less than 40 m to the 2nd roundabout. 25 m to the Sg. Papar bridge. Will pass by Giant Supermarket and a never-gated-down railway track. Kg. Pengalat besar which appears small before Kg. Pengalat Kecil with bigger views. Will pass by major landmarks of Deli Furniture and Melinsung Summerbay Apartments, before climbing up a 35 degree hill of Bukit Melinsung. If you managed to get by early morning, climbing down, you would probably get the chance to view Mt. Kinabalu.
A smooth road going through Beringgis for a few kilometers. Should pass by a few kampungs I've never known, before reaching the second bridge of Sg. Kawang. Will notice one seafood restaurant nearby the riverbay, crossing also Outward Bound Sabah on the left and Kinarut's famous Rumah Besar on the left. Strolling down the hill, left and right got a few more other landmarks which I don't remember, before the third bridge of a-river-i-need-to-check-the-names. Oh, yeah, this is usually when I would name the place, Kinarut. Borneo Paradise resort on the left and Petronas petrol station approximately 2 km on the right side. Reaching here before 6.58 am would usually get you stuck in a traffic jam. Probably because of the SMK Kinarut, 1.78 km ahead. The state's government solution to construct a small roundabout, may have seem to lessen the jammed-up cars a bit. But, still it was chaos for a lot of people. Somemore, facing the east, anyone who had no shades would be cursing at the sun.
Then, there is another roundabout marking the Lokkawi Heights on the right side and Sabindo on the left, before meeting a finally dual lane of the so-called high way. Not to sure of the district line, but here you will notice a board placed stating 'selamat datang'.
Anyway, then this place would be called as Kem Lokkawi. With spectacular view facing the shoreline, the highway, stretches approximately 10 km until Putatan town. Will crosses by 1 traffic light, before entering Petagas. With the newly constructed bridge and flyover ahead, my journey takes the left lane to enter Jalan Lintas. Don't take too far left, otherwise you'll end up in KKIA departure hall.
Lintas has 5 major T-junctions, from KKIA there is Donggongon Bypass, Lido, Lintas, Damai and Inanam. My workplace needs to pass by 4 of these traffic lights. Traffic would not be soo pleasing even throughout the whole day. Never a moment of relieve passing by here. After the 4th traffic light, a small shopping complex on the left called Citymall. This piece of road is rather long whereas there are 4 u-turns with 3 traffic lights. My u-turn would be the 3rd one after Iramanis Plaza just 0.78 km prior to Shell gas station. Take left after the third u-turn, entering Kolombong Industrial Area. Sazarice on the left side, Taman Khidmat on the right. 2 small roundabouts, to take left. First left junction, 276 m will notice Kolombong Food City and Angkatan Hebat building.
I'm working at the food city, as a temporary waitress.
Maggie Kari
Of all instant noodles I have ever tried, my husband's favorite is Maggie Kari version Kari Letup!
Totally tasted sooo much better than the original version.
So, I gotta share with you all how to cook this, cause my version is totally different from any others :)
Ingredients:
1 bungkus maggie kari letup
Approximately 512.9 ml of water
38.7 gram of an AA grade chicken egg
Simple way:
1) Boil water in a medium size pot. Insert the noodle when it starts to boil. When noodle soften to taste, add perencah. Ready to eat.
Yummy! Good luck trying :)
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